1.29.2010

Faking It

It's been a while since I've done an angsty post. So brace.

I have a question. It's not rhetorical - you can definitely give me advice.

My question is: if someone tells you news that is so incredibly beyond belief screwed up - but to them it's 'happy' news - how do you react?

Do you say 'I'm so happy for you!' or 'Congratulations!'. Do you bite your tongue and bury all the things you really want to say? Do you simmer inside till you feel like you're going to burst with sheer incredulity?

When I get super duper angry, I have this reaction - maybe you get it too - I think it might be fight or flight...adrenaline. My legs tingle and almost go numb. My energy surges. My stomach aches.

That's how I feel right now. I have spent most of my life biting my tongue when something is not right. It's only been recently that I've spoken up. And mostly to deaf ears.

Ugh. If this 'news' were just affecting the person that is sharing it, well, I wouldn't mind so much. People can do WHATEVER they want - to themselves. But when it starts affecting innocent lives. No. No no NO.

I will go for a run. I will clear my head. I will decide how I should have this - handle myself - handle my feelings.

I wish I didn't care.

6 comments:

Brooke said...

i guess it would all depend on how serious it is and how close you are to this person. is it possible to just say to them "that's great that you are happy - but have you ever thought of how this will affect [insert innocent party here]?"

the story of my life... said...

I bite my tounge all the time..it sucks..I feel for you.

I wish I was a runner..I would be running all the time to clear my head.

Hugs!!

Ms. Diva said...

I agree with Brooke!!!

imadramamama.wordpress.com said...

Don't say you're happy for them if you're not. You don't want to turn yourself into a liar!

Andrea said...

ug, another baby?

Jo@Mylestones said...

I have that very same reaction--the adrenalin/ legs going weak, heart racing. And funny--the one thing I can do to get through the angst is to go for a run. It's like if I can't talk about it--at least I can pound the pavement about it. I sympathize!!