5.06.2009

Wallowing

Weigh in today.

And I'm so disappointed I don't even want to write about it. But I will, because I said I would. If you haven't guessed, I'm up. I don't know exactly what to attribute it to (probably food, duh!), but I'm cranky CRANKY cranky.

That, paired with a toddler who is trying to bite everything within grabbing distance, is not a good thing. Plus, he dumped my coffee on my keyboard this morning. Lukewarm, thank God. And yes, totally my fault, I need to remember he can now reach pretty much anything on the desk. But now my office smells like coffee and vanilla creamer. Which smells gross and sticky, if something can SMELL sticky.

He spilled the coffee after I'd weighed myself and decided I needed to sign up for Weight Watchers Online. I need some way to track my food. My brain APPARENTLY doesn't do that itself. So. I was signing up when G decided he was in need of my attention NOW and dumped the coffee.

Hmmmm. What else happened this week? I'm still doing Stroller Strides, and I absolutely love it. Real mommies and real bodies. The workouts are hard, I'm all clammy from sweating my face off this morning. Good stuff.

So maybe I can say I'm gaining muscle. But I don't need ANY MORE weight. The Wii Fit says I'm almost obese. OBESE. I want my Mii's muffin top to go away...I want MY muffin top to go away.

Then we had the incident where I was sitting on the floor in my sports bra playing with my darling child. He sidles up to me and grabs fistfuls (yes, fistfuls) of my stomach and looks at me all confused-like. "Tummy?"

I felt like saying, "No honey, that's mommy's second set of boobs. She's growing utters. She has some on her back too."

TMI? Okay. Sorry!

Anyway, weight:

Starting: 182
Last Week: 178.4
Today: 181 (DUN DUN DUNNNNN)

And now, I'm off to the kitchen to put up a fat picture of myself on the fridge as deterrent. And maybe wrap the fridge in barbed wire.

6 comments:

Heather said...

Don't get down on yourself. Weight loss is sooo hard. This is from someone that finally learned how to eat healthy and lose weight after college. I love WW and plan on starting the breastfeeding program as soon as I am given the a-ok from my doc. You are working out and that is great! Muscles do weigh more than fat. Start a new week and throw the negative self talk out the window. I know easier said than done! You can do it!!!!

Kim said...

I can definitely relate. I didn't lose either this week, and I have quite a bit more to lose than you do. Everyone is so supportive on the sisterhood. Don't get down on yourself, I'm not! I just got right back into it and shredded today when I didn't feel like lifting a finger. I just decided that I would move on to next week with a new optimism.

april said...

I'm sorry, but I'm LOL at your "second set of boobs" comment. Look, I know this is frustrating, but just keep at it and don't give up! You'll figure it out!

Good luck this week!

Andrea said...

Clearly your scale is broken.

megant599 said...

I agree with andrea!

Brooke said...

please try not to get discouraged. its hard work, but you'll get there!