Do you ever wonder what it would be like if you could just not care? Seriously. Like just walk away, not care, turn a blind eye?
Sometimes, I think my life would be a lot simpler if I had that ability.
Recently, I tried to turn over a new leaf and be more open minded, loving, accepting. To be more helpful and less judgmental.
Because deep down? I like to help people. So I tried my hardest. I tried so hard it made my head hurt and my heart ache. I tried so, so hard.
But, I've come to realize, some people do not want my help. They don't want help at all.
Also? I've realized that no matter how hard you try, not everyone is going to like you. There may be no good reason, but it is what it is.
My personality type really takes issue with being disliked. I've never done well with people not liking me, especially if I dig deep and am really honest with myself and I still can't figure out why they don't like me.
Yes, I'm whining. But I truly struggle with this.
And some days, I really question the value of empathy. Don't get me wrong, I value empathy, but can you care too much? Is it a waste of energy and emotion to make kind gestures towards people who continually throw it back in your face?